The Fifth : Just A Few Words

Assalamualaikum W.B.T.

A lot of things happened in such a short time, and most of them were rather disappointing than making me happy...there's too much to tell, so I'll summarize it. But first, I've no offense with anybody, and I don't want to make enemies. it's up to you how to interpret my words.  Hopefully this will make you people out there to wake up.

1. a shocking truth

a few weeks ago, I found out that my friend did something very wrong, which then eventually ends up with she herself being ignored by almost everyone. I won't say what she did, but my friend, please change. be it you are innocent or wrong, there is this one, two or several attitude of yours needs to be altered. whatever happened between us before doesn't matter, coz' I still consider you as a friend. 

2. best friends and courses, does it matter? 

I've been following one 'cold war' between two best friends on which courses they've taken is much harder. well let me give you guys my opinion : both were difficult. I've seen some of my friends who took TESL, and yupe, it's hard to tell which part of theirs looked as hard, but they know it better than us because they went through it . we are only observers, we don't know what happens inside. okay Mr. I? and same goes to you Mr. F...I know you're trying to tell that all courses were difficult, but I'm pretty sure about this one : it's the ongoing pressure that makes ours (plus other archi-based and engineering courses) as different, so maybe the term was wrong. I don't wan't to be a flint, but this is a fact. Both of you have your points, and both of you said 'aku bukan marah, cuma nak jelaskan', but you guys should ponder where this could lead to: end of friendship. stop arguing things and clenching your teeth at other's backs. it's really an eyesore. sorry. 

3. the ungrateful ones

last morning, I was really shocked to heard that my educator being accused of something he didn't meant to do. the sad part it that the report made was from his own student. I was soooo angry that time! yes, it's true he said that he wanted to throw our drawings at your faces, but did he do it? NO! and yes, he did tear off your precious, 2-day-with-no-sleep-worth of drawing, but why did he teared it? BECAUSE IT WAS NOT THAT GOOD! come on, we seniors have endured much more than you guys had, and look where it had got us? BETTER QUALITY OF WORKS! wake up guys, he only did that as a psycho for you to do better, FOR YOUR VERY BEST! and how do you pay him back? by telling THE VERY VERY VERY BIG BOSS??!!! no need to go too far laa if you hate him so much, just talk among your friends, or maybe the little boss je...think about the knowledge he gave you little children! it's a tough world of job we have out there, so if you can't cope up with the TINIEST pressure you've had now, you better BAIL OUT! (sorry I'm really furious on this one)

4. crush is a crush, not more or less

a few of you knew who I liked, so what??? there is no need for you to talk behind my back and said that 'anis gedik, suka pakwe orang'...I'm one human being with normal feelings like anybody else, and liking someone is something very hard to control, or maybe some can't control it at all. it's not like I'm gonna go beside him and said 'hey I like you, wanna be my girlfriend?' or whatsoever...in fact, I even support him being liking the girl he liked! I'm a girl with principles, and I knew he had someone, that is a fact I've realised a very long time ago. so don't worry, I won't snatch him from anybody. I don't even flirting with him, because I respect him as my friend. a crush is a crush. if he is happy, then I'm happy. please, even though you guys talked to me once a while , I know what you guys were up against. so stop teasing and start thinking, teasers. 

5. days with no soul

we are students, and what do students do? STUDYING. studying does not mean copying notes or 'sekadar siap je'...we are paying the university and the government supports half of the fees for us to learn, not copy! yes it's true, you study to get a scroll to get a job, but remember, KERJA ITU BEKALAN DUNIA, TAPI ILMU ITU BEKALAN AKHIRAT. it's no use if you study for three years but gained nothing except a scroll.  I really don't like the way we study right now, not all, but most of us. We are doing assignments quickly   to submit before the deadline, and yes that is a must, but at last, we learnt nothing...well maybe a bit. I remembered some of us break fast together, and then one of us asked 'ape yang korang dah belajar sem ni?', and none of us, including me, could answer the question. it's really frustrating, I felt like I've been using the whole semester only to meet up with the course requirements, but gained nothing. well we can't blame ourselves entirely on this matter, I bet other courses were the same too. It's just that I'm not comfortable with how we are studying now.it's like, YOU GOT EVERYTHING, BUT YOU GAINED NOTHING. it's empty. to me, something is not right. TO ME. no offense towards anybody. 

6. thank you

I don't know how to say this, but even though I'm really stressed right now, some people did cherish my life and made me stronger. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt so grateful to Allah for giving me the chance to know you guys. 

WONDERPETS - we are miles, even some were thousands miles away, but you guys never left any single one behind. I love you guys.

Aiman and Nina Lads - the two of you were my greatest inspiration in this swash-buckling course. By doing nothing, you guys were actually doing so many things to others. one is me. Thanks a lot. 

Sharul and the gang - you guys were nuts! and I love yours' nuttiness...it's fun and I felt so lively with you guys =D

Meyo and Azim - For being good companions since part 1, thank you =)

Nina N and Syera - Dongsaengs, keep up with the spiritful spirits! hahah ;)

En. Azrul - I never met such a unique and interesting teacher/lecturer like you. Please stay the same =)

Anne Kamil - you are the best roomate ever! I LOVE YOU!

Farid - and you mr. nice guy, thanks for living back my debating days. you're a great karaoke companion!

most of all, my FAMILY...

mak and abah, I love both of you more than everybody in this world. you raise me up and endured with my crazy behaviours, and yet gave me more than what I need. I love you guys too much till the end of my life =)

along, fiqah, djauzaq and djauzee...no matter how much small quarrels we had, we still lay on our beds and 

talked about our stories till late morning...and that's what I love about us! we care for each other, and helped others whose in need. this is the relationship I can't find with anybody else except you guys. you guys were my siblings and my true best friends. I love you guys very much =)

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perhaps I'm too stressed right now coz' gargantuan assignments is heading right ahead, and yet i'm sitting infront of this lappy and typing this post! hahah sorry everyone, but hopefully the ones mentioned gets something out of this........okay enough with the blabbers anis! gotta hit the assignments now! till then...TOODLES! ;D